my baby is fourteen years old today….it is inconceivable to me that the beautiful young woman who lives in my house is the same tiny baby i fell is love with so many years ago….and yet somehow it is so…she is a long limbed graceful girl & is now & will always be my baby…i still feel the same tenderness & awe when observe her….she is remarkable…many people don’t know that she was gravely ill as a baby….she stopped breathing when she was just days old & we spent three terrifying weeks in the hospital….she had bacterial meningitis….i lived day & night by her side in a chair next to her hospital bed…tubes & machines surrounded us….it was like an awful dream i could not wake out of…& then she was better…she not only survived but miraculously has grown & prospered in spite of the odds against her….she is strong & yet quite possibly the sweetest person i have ever known…she saved me, as if she new she had to get better….for i could not have survived any other out come…she saved me…made me a mother…taught me how to love & be self-less….there is not a single day that goes by that i do not realize how lucky we are….as her long limbs curl up on the sofa or bound out of the car heading for class, she does not know that a piece of my heart is always with her….nuzzled somewhere near her heart…motherhood is so humbling & eye opening….it’s heartbreaking & miraculous….my baby is not a baby anymore…but i still love to watch her sleep, to see the slow even rise & fall of her breath….it is today as i celebrate my beautiful daughter’s birthday, that i think of all the mother’s with sick children…i can & cannot imagine how hard it is….i wish you well…strength & peace…today i count my blessings & wish all mothers many blessings throughout the journey of raising another human being & watching a little piece of your heart find their way in the world….xoxo
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happy birthday mykela…may your 14th
year be as lovely as you are…..i love you
a little more sweetness....
